News and ☀ Summer Things..

I have great news! I was finally able to "recover" my California I.D. a few days ago. About a 1/2 an hour after my date on Tuesday she called! The next morning she came by and gave it to me. We talked for about twenty minutes (well, she talked mostly) and then she left to get to work, but we made plans to see each other this coming week. I told her to call me, so I'm actually hoping that she does because I would like to see where this can go. I'm interested to know if she really wants to continue seeing me. She seemed to be, but I can't be sure because her story has so many holes. She doesn't "owe" me anything, but at the same time, if she wants me to trust her she will have to earn that back. I would like to feel like I trust her again, but frankly, I can't help but feel a little bit like that companionship that we had was ruined, if not over altogether. I'll just have to find out ;)

I do have plans with Holly, the woman I went out with on Tuesday night. We're going swimming! I absolutely love Summer ~ I'm crazy about it, so these are perfect plans. We are still chatting here and there on the phone, so I'm positive that she is still interested ♥ it's so liberating to meet another person that wants to spend time with me. That may sound like I'm being insecure (and maybe I am a little), but it's been so rough just getting a date with a female that it's fantastic to see someone more consistently.

I have decided to decorate my room so that it feels more personal. I have started cleaning it yesterday and I still have work to do on it, but it's coming along. I want to buy those cute strings of Chinese paper lantern lights. I love those! I also want to put up more small wall shelves for candles, pretty stickers for the wall (although stickers are a mess when trying to get them off) etc. I want to buy more posters that interest me as well, but those are hard to find. I'm going on and on, I know, but this is a transition that I am making because I want to grow more in touch with my "feminine" material side. I need a balance of both spiritual and material & dating women has actually helped me to do that.

I also made a playlist of Summer songs & a list of Summer movies that I've been working on watching.

Music:
Cruel Summer by Ace of Base
Missing You by Black Eyed Peas
Stir It Up by Bob Marley
Sea of Love by Cat Power
Daylight by Chicane
Beautiful by Garbage
Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes
& Others

Movies:
The In Crowd
The Sandlot
8 Days a Week
Blue Crush
Crazy/Beautiful
That Night
Adventureland
Kill Bill
A Knight's Tale
& Others

I've been having fun watching these movies and listening to my Summer music playlist. Well, for now, that's all I have to say.

☮ -&- ♥

This is Manifesting!

Craziness. Wow. What a wonderful feeling. So, I have had a lot of lessons to learn within the past few days and I'm so super duper excited right now because I just had a very successful date with a woman who is 33 & I like her a lot. I'm so happy to have met her because it's very easy to talk with her and she's exactly what I'm looking for in terms of a dating companion. She may be 33, but I feel like as far as maturity level goes we are so similar. I might be wrong, but I trust enough to go forward and see what happens. This is where it get's fun because we just had our first date and we're making plans to see each other this coming week! Tonight, we went to grab some coffee & tea and then we walked to the park and relaxed near the grass and talked. I learned a bit about her and I like what I'm hearing from her! I'm so delighted to have met someone that I can spend time with and get to know while I am going through these lessons, especially because I have learned so much about myself since I have started dating women! She even kissed me! At first, I was taken aback because she asked me if she could give me a kiss and I didn't expect that! I said yes and I was happy to, but I felt so unprepared that I feel kind of bad that the moment was a little awkward. I'll get it next time around!


Shannon, the girl that went "M.I.A.", finally called me back!! I was so relieved to finally hear from her. She was, apparently, sick for an entire week and couldn't speak due to strep throat. Well, I had been struggling for longer than a week to get in touch, but I accepted her explanation and didn't question her too much. I still don't feel like I trust her too much, however, I am willing to give it another shot. She seems very sorry and she apologized about the misunderstanding -if that is what it was - and she acted like she truly wants to see me again. So, that being said I'm happy that I'm getting my I.D. back and it's a plus if our friendship grows from this point on. If I feel like she's not communicating herself enough or something is not going quite right than I'll confront her about it and that will be that. Just to get an explanation, for her to return my calls and to be getting my I.D. back is just a relief and total bonus in and of itself. I feel incredibly good!

This is what it's like to manifest your life. I asked for what I wanted, I worked to get it and now, I have it!

☮ -&- ♥